P's Notes

Do you remember the e-rickshaw ride that we had back to the campus? I was wearing my pink kurta and I guess you wore one of your breezy shirts. Do you remember how there was something wrong with the rickshaw and it was unimaginably slow and how weird it was to see everyone overtaking us, even the pedestrians? I am having all those flashbacks today when I am here after two years. Did I tell you that I didn't want that ride to end. I don't remember us speaking a lot that day. Silence did all the talks there. But I know you understood. Did you feel the electricity too? As I go on, I feel thoughts rushing through my mind as storms. Storms that carry people; people from the past. I found myself entangled amidst the storm. I feel so much, suddenly. As I enter through the gate, I see the older me. Me who was young and stupid and naive. I see myself rushing to the class every day. It felt surreal. Like I was back in those days when life was all about the struggle of attending t

I will never know what makes this video so special. Is it John & Jenny, the kids, the dog, or the snow? Or is it just the fact that everything in their life starts changing from this very day. I could so relate to "the list" that Jenny had in the beginning. All of us have a list. It's just that some of us are vocal about it while the others keep denying its existence. John and Jenny get married, move to a new city, get jobs but their life actually begins when they get Marley home. Marley, the dog or the devil who took the face of a dog? HAHA! It was hilarious to watch Marley getting expelled from "the obedient school." I laughed when Marley tried to crash through screen doors or run away with Jenny's undergarment or start eating everything he could from sofas to jewelry but my heart went out to him when I saw him getting restless and scared in the thunderstorm.  Marley was a mess, a beautiful mess, and I don't think he could have found better

Take a deep breath. This isn't the end of the world. It's okay to feel hollow It's okay to feel the void The pain might be gut-wrenching It's okay. Take a deep breath. Do not hold back. Cry. It's fine if you break down. Do not punish yourself. Your pain is yours as much as your happiness is. Embrace it. Let it be. Hug your pillow, curl up inside the sheets and go to sleep. It isn't your fault. The next morning will bring a better day. A day where the pain might still be there. But you shall be better prepared. Do not push yourself but keep at it.  The pain must not wash away, the memory of good times. Do not let it ruin your soul It shall not make you a bitter person. Take a deep breath. This isn't the end of the world.

He was bogged down with all the worldly responsibilities. Amidst daily chores, kids, and family Somewhere he got lost. I wonder if he ever found himself.  For his childhood was no different. Destiny made him an adult. So soon. The mind that was supposed to think about games, Was worried about earning a living. The thought that there was no one, to attend his parent-teacher meeting, to wish him luck before his exams Makes my heart ache. There was no hand on his shoulders, Nobody to back him up. No one to pick him, if he falls. He has learned to walk alone. For he has been doing the same for a while now. My heart aches when I think of the innocence that was killed. Does he think about how his life would have been different, Had there been an adult in his home.  Had there been someone by his side. I want to take him to woods and make him listen to the call of that bird he loves. I want to buy him his favorite jacket, he could

I dread the time I go home, and sit alone with my cup of tea. I wonder if the tea also thinks the same. We are left alone at each other's mercy for quite some time. I wonder if she likes my company. As tears roll down my cheek,  I see her questioning my eyes. My cup of tea wants me to talk As the steam touches my eyes, I can feel her wiping my tears. Her warmth trying to reach my soul. The soul that has been cold for a while. Her efforts do reach my soul, but I still don't feel warm; I try to fake it  for her disappointment worries me. She is the only one, I've got for a while. I fear losing her. I fear losing her efforts.