Distracted

Shampooing my hair seems to be one of the biggest struggles in life. Some women shampoo alternate days, some twice a week, I wait for the entire week to wash my hair. I wait till it becomes greasy and unbearable. I have thought about breaking this pattern but I am not sure if I have made enough effort.

Yesterday while watching someone's vlog, I suddenly decided to spend (or waste?) some money on a fancy conditioner, hair oil and a face mask. I am not a face mask person. I have never used it. But it seems like a good idea suddenly. I was happy when it got delivered. I have not used it till now though. It claims to remove blackheads and whiteheads and help with acne-prone skin. I mean why not! I hope I start using the hair oil I have bought.

I haven't been able to write. That half-written piece will choke me it seems but I still won't be able to finish it. Let's see.

After two days, yesterday I woke up not feeling tired. My throat was feeling better suddenly. The day went quite well but suddenly something happened in the evening. An argument, and an unnecessary phone call both of which were not a very big deal. But somehow it triggered me. I came to bed and I was feeling so exhausted from life in general. It felt like I have no control over things. Life seemed pointless at that moment. 

In moments like this, P's intervention annoys me at first but ends up making me feel better. That's what happened yesterday too. He did make me feel better. 

I also did something which was very unlike me. I don't regret it though. At least for the first time, I did something about how I was feeling so it's okay.

This week seems longer than others. 

I get easily distracted and this picture is a reminder of that. I had sat down to write, it was a quiet moment, but then puff it was gone just like that and I could only write two sentences.