Rituals

I feel quite uninspired and blank. Before coming here, I scrolled through everything that I could. I don't know what to write about today. I was working and thinking about a piece for months. I sat on it for so long that I kept missing deadlines. Somehow I finished working on it yesterday and sent it to the editor. The default expectation is always rejection but let's see. I am also imagining and wondering what if it gets accepted.

But it feels like that piece has left a void. Last few months, I had something that I was supposed to work on. Now my mind is looking for a new subject. I am reading Mason Currey's book. It has all these stories about women artists and how they worked, what was their daily routine like. I love reading/watching the daily routines/rituals of people. It's strange and weird. This need to be so voyeuristic. But it is what it is I guess. 

Anyway, this book is extremely inspiring. It tells you how despite all kinds of adversities and responsibilities, these women lived to create art. They were constantly at unease, always uncomfortable. Their stories also tell you that most of them prioritised their art, it didn't come naturally or easily to them. It was hard but they kept at it. 

I am quite restless today. So I am not going to write more. I should maybe go and read another story from that book.

See you later.